25 posts tagged “taurus”

So, I got to meet a local celebrity from my hometown the other day. It was great fun- he's known for having the blingiest house at Christmas you have ever seen, and I got to tour the house. Huzzah!

So as I'm reading his website later, he happened to mention his birthday (the day before mine! Wow, I know a lot of April 23rd birthdays), AND the place of birth and time!

Yeah, I had to look.

He's a double Taurus (shopping, shopping), with a Sag moon (like me, hah), and URANUS RISING! That just cracked me up big time. He's in a very hierarchical profession/religion, but has the big ol' Sign of the Weirdo right front and center. With a north node in Leo (flashy!) in the fourth house...yes, he has a flashy house. (Interestingly enough, Chiron is conjunct the NN. I wonder what that means to him to do a flashy house with that aspect.) He's also a Venus Saturn person...a Catholic deacon sworn to celibacy.

Amusingly enough, my mother told him the next day that I'd seen we had nearby birthdays and he was all, "Taurus! Stubborn, likes to shop..." Believe me, if you've seen his house, you KNOW that. He must be really fun to go shopping with. Huh, I should meet the man more often. :)

Found over here:

Those of us with our Sun in the 2nd or in Taurus (or our ASC in Taurus ) have a good thing going. The asto community has set the bar pretty low for us. We're evolved as long as we don't spend ALL of our free time engaging in threesomes with a hottie and hot fried chicken, atop a cash-filled mattress.

Last night: three Scorpios and two Tauruses (with the same birthday!) were having a conversation. I am just amused as all hell how these signs go together sometimes. 

In other news, I WANT ONE OF THESE.

Not my chart, but similar.

"Michele, with several planets in Leo, your Ascendant in Scorpio, and Mars in Taurus on the Descendant, you are a strong fixed-sign person. I am, too, and so I can sympathize with where you are right now.

The fixed signs - Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, and Aquarius - can be difficult to work with, because they are stubborn and immovable. The flip side is that they are stable, reliable, and durable. We can carry burdens that would break others. Of course, that can mean we get a heavier load in life, too.

Leo and Aquarius are being impacted heavily right now due to a series of eclipses in these two signs that began this past February and will run until August 2009. To a lesser degree, Scorpio and Taurus also are being impacted (along with Scorpio and Taurus Rising). Since you are a Rising Scorpio, you are getting hit doubly hard. I don’t doubt that you are tired. I am, too! But hang in there, because you are being offered an opportunity to transform, grow, and evolve. Unfortunately, this never happens without a certain amount of pain.

Simultaneously with the eclipses, we are experiencing an opposition of Saturn and Uranus. These two patterns don’t seem to be related, but they are linked in an indirect way. I bring this up, because Saturn currently is moving through your tenth house of career and is transiting your lunar North Node in Virgo. The North Node often indicates our “mission” in life, so I feel fairly sure that you are about to find it.

Your challenge, as I see it, is that you have a lot of “self-oriented” Leo energy in your chart, while your North Node in Virgo indicates that your life’s work is about service to others. You will have to find a balance that allows you to fully express who you are while also serving humanity."

I love Aquarians, but they're not good for me, even with my Uranus rising. This chickie sounds like me at ages 20-21, where I was surrounded by them, I was the closest to them...and they all ditched my clingy ass. Oh hey, and she has Venus Saturn...

Nowadays, I am surrounded by Scorpios, which I'd rather deal with. At least they LIKE having people around.

Really? I find this hard to believe.

Hello, my name is Jennifer, and I am a massive ball of Taurus/Leo/Scorp fixed sign stuff, and I CAN'T DEAL WITH CHANGE.

Let's just get that out in the open, shall we?

Here's how my day has gone. No family fighting, for once, but that's because my mom is going out of town. Local drama is going down, though.

I am in an organization that I cannot get to without assistance, as it is not located remotely near public transport. I used to get rides over with friends, who all moved out of my area. A year or so ago, I finally found someone living in my town who wanted to join the group, so I rode along with him.

For the last six months or so, I have had the impression that this fellow wanted to/was going to drop out of the group. He was having a rough time in it, he didn't exactly have spectacular attendance (and this is someone who, from my previous experience of him, is not flaky like that), and his excuses for not wanting to go got lamer and lamer. And finally, he had something bad happen to him at the last meeting that made him want to officially drop out. I can't blame him for this at all, because if I had that going on, I would drop out too.

So basically, I knew this was coming. KNEW THIS.

In the meantime, an opportunity has come up for me to join a similar group, which is located in my town and would not require me to find a ride out to meetings. (The folks in the group all have the same lack of transport issue, as far as I can tell, so they weren't joining group #1.) So I joined it, knowing that odds are I was going to have to leave group #1. I think there are enough people in the group who sound like they're permanent locals (this town has a LOT of flakes, which is why my attempts to start a local group with the people I met previously have fizzled yearly) for it to last awhile.

So technically speaking, this shouldn't be A Big Deal, right? I knew it was coming, I've had six months to get used to the idea. I've been talking about dropping out of it as a part of my future for most of that time. I've even managed to find another place for me to go to.

So why the hell do I feel like crawling under my desk and hiding, not to mention that I kind of want to go out and get drunk, now that the hammer has finally come down?

I'm sad about losing my friends in group #1, who I will see either never again or about once a year if I don't go to their turf. There is that. They're a spectacular group of people. But other than that, hell, this frees up more time in my schedule. Group #1 has "every other weeknight" meetings that make it difficult to schedule anything else on that night, and I've been trying to work around that for 2 1/2 years. Group #2 has meeting times that are more flexible, and that so far I can generally make meetings on unless I'm out of town. The folks there seem nice. There are some advantages to this.

And yet, I am still inwardly cringing and feeling sick and having a hard time trying not to feel that way. It doesn't help either that the fellow mentioned that he also got laid off from his job (we work in the same general location), which suddenly makes me feel all paranoid for myself, even though I work in one of those highly necessary areas that's about as layoff-free as anyone is likely to get in this day and age. I know it's dumb, but hearing of anyone else's makes me have flashbacks to the last recession when it was me.

I don't make changes unless they are thrust upon me, which this one was. About the only change I choose on my own are what activities to do. Somehow it doesn't bother me to choose to make a change when I decide to fill up my schedule, but to lose something from it (that doesn't have a natural ending date, but was thrust upon me) bothers the crap out of me.

I am already nervous about the fall because due to policy changes, I may be forced out of my longstanding volunteer job that I love doing. Like the above example, I have been working behind the scenes to cover my ass and find another way to work there if I'm no longer allowed to volunteer. All things considered, I've covered my ass nicely on that, so I should still be able to get all of the benefits of volunteering WHILE DOING LESS WORK (and getting paid in an imaginary way on top of that), if I am forced out. Plus it would free up another weekday night that I've had issues scheduling around for years. None of that is bad. And yet, I CRINGE at leaving volunteering too.

Hell, I'm still cringing at dropping out of a group (call it group #3) that I wanted to join and had to drop out of because it conflicted with volunteering and I couldn't find a way to make the two work.  And I'm cringing at dropping out of my weekend dance class. Mind you, (a) the class ENDED because I was the only one who hadn't dropped out of it besides the instructor, (b) the instructor has now started his own studio, and (c) the reason I am no longer taking from him is because he's moved the class from running once a weekend day to three times on weekday nights, and that kind of scheduling is just really bad for me. I didn't even choose to drop him, I just didn't re-sign up. And yet I feel TERRIBLE about that and am still trying to figure out some way to free up weeknights in order to go, though at the moment this doesn't appear to be working too well.

So. I can add, JUST DON'T SUBTRACT ME, DAMMIT.

All summer, I have been whining that I want to make some changes in my life (not scheduling ones, life goal ones). But I'm not quite unhappy enough to want to throw everything to the winds and bail. It's my heavy Saturn issues- I feel like I should have to endure and that bailing out is NOT an option. I can't just cut and run free of chains. I have to stick with whatever I am already burdened with.

If you ask Elsa, fixed signs are hopeless at this. (Or at least, that's my impression from reading this:)

Those are all fixed signs - so basically you’re not going anywhere until and unless you decide to move, which will probably take an act of God.

But even beyond that, making changes- even semi-minor ones thrust upon me- makes me feel sick.

Astro.com, on Saturn square Uranus:

This aspect may be expressed in another way, as a tension in your life between personal freedom and authority or sense of duty. One part of you is always trying to toe the line set by others, while another part wants to break free. Usually you feel that you can fulfill your obligations only by giving up personal freedom. It is difficult for you to be yourself, do what you want to do, and at the same time do what you have to do. Rebellious behavior, along with a tense and grudging acceptance of your duties, are characteristic of this aspect.

I can't say I've had much in the way of manifestation working for me this month (ugh), but today I'm thinking on these subjects and guess what gets posted on the Internet, another fixed sign person with that problem. Alas, they didn't seem to elaborate on what their problem was, so Eric theorized it was a parent issue. Whee, Moon/Saturn!

His suggestion:

I suggest you talk about all the most difficult things first, which means finding someone to talk to about them. There are probably a lot of very bright people in your circle of friends, but you have to find someone with whom you have no fear and who you know will not abuse the power you give them by divulging everything, and I do mean everything. A very open minded therapist would be a great start — preferably somebody without a Ph.D., unless of course you trust and adore that person. Whoever it is, you need to choose a therapist you want to become like, because that is basically what happens.

Hm. Well, I already do that. I just...need to go beyond that point, I think.

Heh. I just finished this, hit post, and then went on to find Roger Ebert having the same issue:

I was surprised how depressed I felt all day on July 21, when Richard and I announced we were leaving the "Ebert and Roeper" program. To be sure, our departures were voluntary. We hadn't been fired. And because of my health troubles, I hadn't appeared on the show for two years. But I advised on co-hosts, suggested movies, stayed in close communication with Don DuPree, our beloved producer-director. The show remained in my life. Now, after 33 years, it was gone--taken in a "new direction." And I was fully realizing what a large empty space it left behind.

"In a session with a client the other day, she asked me if I saw her moving any time soon.  She really wanted to move from where she was, and she was hoping that was indicated in her chart somewhere."

I hear that. Well, moving along with something in general, if not specifically the town I live in. (On my list of places to live, the town I am in is #3. That ain't bad. Especially since locations #2 and #1 are incredibly beyond expensive.)

But I do want to do...something. And I somehow absolutely cannot budge myself to do a damn thing. Oh, the joys of being doubly fixed. My poor lone Sag moon wants ouuuuuuuuut and the Taurus and Scorpio axis emphasis does not allow escape. I'm a chaos magnet, but in the last year and a half, my lightning-rod-ness has dwindled down to some degree. I'm used to lightning making decisions for me. And it seems like without being forced to because something blew up, I can't make myself do squat.

Then again, this could also be because I am also so sick of things exploding around me that I don't want to deliberately cause more unpleasant upset in my life. Then again, I'm unable to even go for PLEASANT upset.

So, what's the issue with this? Is it fixable?

Sometimes we have planetary events that clearly indicate a change is coming: for example, when transiting Uranus (radical change and innovation) crosses over the Midheaven/Nadir axis (cusp of the fourth house of home and tenth house of career).  Twice a year or so transiting Mars will cross that point, stimulating the desire for some sort of change.  But change is not always seen as just an event triggered by a planet; it is often the result of an activated Will that occurs after a longer-term cycle.

Yeah, so far this isn't panning out for me.

This client had what I like to call a "Mars Problem" in her chart, with Mars in the twelfth house, where it operates in the subconscious realms, and stressed by both Saturn (limitation and challenge) and Chiron (wounding and healing).  Mars acts as the Will of our personal self; in many ways it is our Free Will.  Mars is our desire nature; it shows how we go about getting what we want and keeping what we have and in that role it also shows how well we set boundaries and defend ourselves.  When Mars is stressed in the chart we have difficulty in all of these areas and our Free Will loses its functionality as a result.  Sometimes we can feel paralyzed, not knowing where to turn.

My Mars is hammered:

Mars Conjunct Midheaven  
Sun Square Mars  
Mars Square Ascendant  
Mars Square Uranus  
Moon Trine Mars  
Mercury Trine Mars  

Some good aspects, but enough hard ones in there probably drone that out. I can't help but think the Mars square Uranus might translate into "big changes = trouble for you." And the fact that it's on the MC and squared by the axis is not good either. Sheesh, and Saturn's not even involved in that.

In the case of my client, she was in a longer-term cycle of Uranus transiting through the tenth house which had caused her to leave her job and pursue a series of other opportunities.  She didn't feel that any of them were right for her but judged herself for wanting yet another change.  Because her Mars, her own inner direction of Free Will, was challenged in the birthchart it was difficult for her to feel safe in her choices.

We don't always get to exercise our free will, and we don't always get what we want as the Rolling Stones so aptly put it many years ago.  Sometimes our individual will (Mars) is blocked by the gods in the form of Saturn (restrictions) or Pluto (transformation) and in those cases fate takes over and all we can do is surrender.  But we still must exercise that free will or it will become atrophied and useless.

Exercising our free will and empowering our Mars is as easy as this:  Ask yourself, what is it you WANT to have happen.  And then DO IT!

*sigh*

Somehow JUST PICK AND DO IT!!!!!!!!! sounds a whole lot easier to say than to do. I can't help but think that if I make a choice and go after it, I'm just putting up the lightning rod and asking God to strike me down somehow. No wonder I can't do shit.

The upcoming solar eclipse will be landing on my MC (where the natal Mars is) on August 1. Hm. I wonder if that will help do...well, anything.

(Again, not online yet, this is from e-mail.)

SPECIAL HOROSCOPE FOR TAURUS

Happy Birthday, Taurus!

This year, the month of your solar return starts off with a very nice and rare aspect, a grand trine between the sun, Saturn in Virgo and Pluto in Capricorn (on April 20). Although it's only exact for a day, the good vibes remain to some extent until the sun leaves your sign. This is the sort of transit that's so pleasant that you might not notice it at all, unless you make extra efforts to capitalize on it. In essence, your personal interests merge harmoniously with your creative interests and with your plans for the future.

 

You can also potentially use the harmonious trio to make efforts to find romance or begin dating, enjoy time with your children, pursue higher learning opportunities or engage in some long-distance travel. The week of May 11 also sees a number of aspects to the sun in your sign, including a nice angle with Uranus in your solar 11th house. This can be used perhaps to initiate an unexpected but personally rewarding friendship, engage in group activities, or do some networking. The sun's also in a good mood with Jupiter that week, but clashes with Neptune in your solar career house. What this probably indicates is that you'll do a tad better focusing on the preparation end of things when it comes to your professional aspirations, rather than trying to launch something that could dissolve in a nebulous haze before you know it.

 

Remember also to make your birthday wish at the time of your solar return (may be a day before your actual birthday this year, due to leap year). Another excellent time to make a wish is at the new moon in your sign on May 5. A new moon is said to bring emotions and subconscious impulses to the surface, where you can align them with your conscious thoughts and plans. The idea is to observe what you feel you really want at this time (rather than what you used to think you wanted based on what other people have told you). Set an intention and then let things take their course. Tip: with so many planets in materially oriented earth signs this month, you'll probably do best to set an intention or make a wish that relates to something visible and tangible in your world, instead of a more intangible wish (such as to grow spiritually).

 

Overall, this solar year is potentially a year a better year than Taurus has seen in awhile. I realize that transits in your personal chart may overshadow the progress your solar chart is making this year, but that's partly because the Taurus solar chart is making progress in such a relaxed, even leisurely style. To give an example, Saturn in Virgo in your solar 5th house may be applying the pressure for you to settle down and get serious in a romance, deal with problems with your children, or make a stolid effort in a personally fulfilling or creative project. You may not think that you're making any progress at all, especially since Saturn moves rather slowly. But you are. You are learning what you need to do in key relationships or projects to make them work in the long-term. That may involve asserting yourself, being stubborn, taking things one step at a time or just sort of trying to figure things out as you go. But that doesn't mean you're doing anything wrong or not getting any benefits from these transits. Indeed, Pluto and Jupiter in Capricorn, plus Saturn in Virgo are rather carefully considering your future, how to achieve stability and comfort, and what you really want a pleasurable life to look like.

 

Don't be fooled by any obstacles they may seem to put in your way. The planets are trying to figure out what you really want at this stage of your life and how you can achieve it without feeling like you're killing yourself. The planets are on your side. All year. As Sally Field would say, they like you, they really really do.